It's been awhile...

Things are building up around me and it feels almost as if I am shrinking to the challenges that are set before me. I have a family (although unsupportive) and an amazing girl that helps me be myself, so why can't I get it right? There are many people without families and people to support them that still rise to the challenges. I guess I am just afraid. Scared of putting my whole self out there. I have opportunities to get more hours at work. Another job opening I could jump at. Even have had enough to get the car I act that I can't get cause "I spend money on my own food" (I think). I just need to save, work more, and get back to school. I know I need to do these things and you have no idea how much I want to get my life in order, but I just fall short with almost every paycheck. My girlfriend is getting frustrated that I don't have money to take her out or a car to also. I am frustrated with myself sometimes when I don't do as I should and spend $20 here and there without thinking about how that could go to my car.... I have $300 saved up but I don't have enough for a car :/ I have been doing better though, I swear. Eating ramen almost every night and just spending money when I should. I just haven't been doing it long enough to make a difference in my life... I will keep at it but I just feel like I started too late and I have already failed.... I have my honey to keep me on the right path though and I will stay on it. Thanks for reading along :/